To answer this question, you need to understand that this is YOUR decision. Don’t let someone else change it. Stop relying on everyone’s opinions. Just don’t. Focus on a decision you are about to make. Are you scared yet excited? Are you questioning yourself? Questioning if the decision you are about to make is right? Believe me, if you are just reading this because you are seeking an answer to a big question, you are most likely making the right decision in your life.
Being scared and questioning everything we see is just a part of who we are. People like pathological liars, psychopaths, and sociopaths rarely question themselves. They are rarely worried that their decisions are not as good as they believe. Why is this example important? It’s not. I’m sure there are better examples to deliver my point. But if we look at those individuals, we can understand that their decisions aren’t as deliberate as ours. Why? Mainly because we are scared half of the time to make big plans and turn our life upside-down or...or maybe there is another reason to explain that. Who knows? I’m not a scientist or a doctor. Why would you trust the word I say—the word I write? You just don’t. Half of the time I hardly understand what I write. <smirk>
Just recently I realized that my life was built on a lie. That many people I knew/know affected my decision—life as a whole. This is no longer the case. I do advise you to think over your decision being somehow connected to those people who keep telling you what you need to do with your own life.
Let me tell you how I came up with the decision to write. It wasn’t easy. I didn’t want to accept that. It scares the hell out of me—it still does. Every time I write—I can’t stop—I have this wonderful feeling which you get only from doing something right. Planning characters and then bringing them to life, seeing those characters popping up in your head while you’re doing something else is just...I don’t think there is a word to describe what I feel at that moment. If I did believe in destiny—which I don’t—and I do need to find the way to call what I experience with writing, then that would be it: writing is my destiny.
I’m sure you experienced something similar. When it comes to life-changing decisions, there is no easy way to tell if you’re going in the right direction, making that right choice. But your emotions, your feelings, may help you with that. Listen to them. Being scared is okay. Questioning your decisions is totally fine, too. Sometimes—like with writing—it’s not a choice but your call. Destiny someone assigned you if you like to call it that way. Think it over.
Good luck.
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